I'm Melting

Two melting incidents this week.

First was Thursday night. I saw my long time crush. She knows my name! When will I see you again? You look gorgeous, by the way.

Second was Friday night. Up Dharma Down was playing at R6. They played The world is Our Playground, I melted. Then, they played We Give in Some Times, I melted some more. I bought their new album BIPOLAR and had it autographed then I had my picture with Armi. Ain't that sweet! And yeah, we talked for a few minutes. Damn, I'm such a fanboy for Dharma.

Those were too unforgettable nights worth melting for.

Emo-ing over Dashboard's Stolen

Waaaah. That's my theme song for this week. It's just so sad the song. Thursdays at Ponti makes it all the more meaningful.

Dashboard Confessional's Website

Speaking of emo. I did and wrote the unexpected last week. It's so sad that the person I wrote to never replied. So much for friendship. Oh how I miss what we had before everything became complicated. But it doesn't have to be. You don't have to let it complicate things, right!? It's a choice and clearly you have chosen complicated awkward.

Found a new reason to love Thursday's

I thought I was over that place in Valero. There is a stage in a person's life where you grow out of the places you liked to hang out with before. A few hours ago, I gave Ponti a second thought. I stopped going there just because I felt I graduated from it already. And back in the day, I was there for a few times to begin with, anyway. M reintroduced me to Thursday's at Ponti where they play alternative rock. Mostly covers. Songs that I definitley grew up liking and it was love love love. Thursday's there are unlike Friday's or Saturday's when most of the younger ones hang out. Not that I'm stressing my age, Thursday's there was just right. Still the gorgeous people who continue to go there there never fade, that's all I can say. Can't wait till the next Thursday night we go there.

Brooke White

Was watching the re-runs of American Idol last weekend and it just dawned on me that Brooke White is so gorgeous. Could have realized this sooner if I get to watch American idol religiously. It's so obvious how TV deprived I am during the weekdays I spend here in Laguna. Going back to Brooke, I really like her. I still haven't heard all the songs she sang in the show, but I like her already. Will YouTube her when I get the time. Too bad she didn't make to the finals though. Her being part of the top 5 is completely respectable, although I think she shouldn't have left just yet. Maybe top 4. Jason Castro should have left that night.

TED: Ideas worth spreading

I love TED.com! Great talks, perfect to download or watch online. Will I ever make it to speak there? Short term goal is to watch it live. TED.com

An invitation to restart

Cuz when we go just so you know
I'll be right here to carry you
Erase the traces
Restart everything, everything new
With wounds to mend
Hearts break but it can rebuild again

I don't know about other people but sometimes I draw spiritual healing from love songs. When I do this, these songs start to play in a different tune. I love it. It becomes so real for me - His love. Jess speaks to me like a persistent lover who only knows how to love me unconditionally. Before I went to sleep 3 nights ago. I played An Invitation by Urbandub, for that purpose. I wanted to hear what He has to say if he could speak to me. I have been through some tough shit in my life. We all do. I have fought battles in this civil war of mine, and so far have come out victorious. But still I have to hold my ground. The battle may have passed but this war is far from over. I know we all have our personal struggles. Our own brokenness. I'm glad that I saw things through with Jess beside me. Reassuring to be there when I fight the fight. His love endless and true, specially in the darkest of times. It was the Coldplay songs that spoke to me then. Dark times. Those songs spoke of my situation and encouraged me to rise above it. Their songs presented a whole new meaning for me. Thank God that right now this battle has ended. I'm starting a new. Though this war is not yet over, I am hopeful that in the end I will be victorious. Jess, I love you. I accept your invitation. I know everything will be made beautiful.

When the fighting is over. At least for today.

Nothing beats a good night out after a stressful day at work and a semi-aching heart. Went to mag:net high street last night to watch a gig with my pals Jo and C. For 150, pesos I was able to unwind and vent out all the stress through music, booze, great conversation and a couple of cigs. Yes. I have broken my fasting from yosi and now consider myself a social smoker. Meaning of social, those boundaries I still need to define. It was such a recharge to hear familiar beats from Urbandub and Taken by Cars. Lalay played all out last night. For that, I crush Lalay even more. Hahaha.

We opted to stay outside so we can smoke. The place was pretty full. Good thing there was an empty sofa by the balcony. Downside was there was a glass pane preventing us from hearing the bands play in their full glory. Also saw my college professor A. I told him i wanted to teach and he told he could help me get in with his recommendation. Yesss. I'll try next school year. By then I should have the program of my elective prepared and syllabus.

It was a worth it night. Totally compensated for the shitty day I had yesterday.

Quote of the night. Nothing worth having ever comes easy. Thanks J and C and Scrubs for sharing those wise words.

DJ DM

Nope! Not DJ Delfin Montano. Although, his hate blog c/o Brian Gorell is addicting like the drugs he snorts. Go check out DJ Dense Modesto. The creator of the Janina San Miguel Remix and a lot of other cool remixes. I'm listening to the BIOMAN remix now. Gotta give him props for the great arrangement.

Check out Dense's Multiply Site